Stretching.

To be stretched into what you were created to be...
it's scary and explosive at the same time.

It's the moment before being stretched where you freak out....
you have this choice; fight through even with fear still prevalent,
or give into the fear altogether.

I have found that most the time when you just fight through, even with the uncomfortable feeling of fear pulsating through every vein in your body,
you come out with victory and more importantly apart of your soul comes alive.
Because, you just did something even though everything in you wanted to run the other direction.
What could more freeing than that?

God is so good.
All the time.
I don't just say that as I cliche "church" thing we have heard our whole lives while sitting in the pews.
I say it because I have experienced His goodness.
And, my friends, once it's experienced there is no turning back.

I came to this conlusion though,
I KNOW He is good...
so why do I even fear?
If He is good all the time, then I know that no matter the siutations that arise in life, everything will work out for my good.
Because, His love and affection is for me.
What more could I ask for?

It's quite a brilliant thing to ponder.

Peace. Love. Joy.

Mistaken.

I realized something the other day.
What I am experiencing here, is the very opposite of what I thought.

I thought that I was coming to a place, where I had to be "perfect" in a sense...
because then, and only then could I be this "super charged miracle worker."

I came though, and realized, it's the very opposite.
My heart is being healed and is coming alive with Jesus.
He is drawing me into an intimacy I have never known.

It's all about the process my friends.
The process is what it's about.
I am in a process.
Jesus is doing so much in my heart.

I don't have to perform.
I don't have to be this "super charged miracle worker."
I just need to be intimate with Him.
I need to constantly be aware of His presence.
To gaze upon Him at any given moment--because it's in that place of intimacy with Him, that all else flows.

As long as I simply turn my affection towards Him, I don't have to worry or strive for the rest. It simply comes.

So, if you ask what I am "working" at?
I am working at not working at all.
I am working at intimacy...and just "being."

If I could give you one tip for life...I would say, embrace the process, and love it.
It's what life is all about.

Peace. Love. Joy.

"When we begin to serve God for the praise of man or to find identity in what we do, no matter how great the call of God is on our lives, no matter how powerful the gifts or the anointing flow in our ministry, that underlying attitude of self-love can begin to produce a hidden resentment and anger, fueled by a fear of rejection and a fear of failure. As soon as our service is no longer motivated by God's love, but by a need to be needed or seen, we begin to drift away from Father's heart of compassion, and we will soon find ourselves in the older brother's shoes, slaving in the fields and thinking all along that we dwell in His house of love." (Jack Frost--Experiencing Father's Embrace)

I suggest reading that book by the way--your life will be changed. Hands Down.

Be a Pioneer.

"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better." (Mother Teresa)

"He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom He poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that, having been justified by His grace, we might become heirs having the hope of eternal life."
(Titus 3:4b-7)

Peace. Love. Joy.

"You've got that kind of face that defies gravity...."

Sorry it's been awhile, been super busy with homework and just life in general.

We finished Beni Johnson's book, The Happy Intercessor, and this is one of my favorite quotes from it:

"When I spend time in the secret place, alone with God, I become so wrapped up in His presence that every other desire loses its importance to me. When I allow His presence to consume me I surrender myself so completely to His will that my desires begin to line up with His. I become fully engulfed in His presence, lost in a sea of His beauty, and captivated by His love. In that place is the fullness of joy, the fullness of peace, the fullness of love, and the fullness of aceptance. In that place, I become one with Him."

I am learning more than ever the importance and necessity of intimacy with Him. I find myself yearning more and more to know His heart and exactly what He is speaking. To not strive for relationship with Him, but instead she "be."

I find myself more and more being lured to this place of rest with Him. In that place is certainly the fullness of all Beni speaks of; joy, peace, love, and acceptance. I get so lost in that place with Him, it's hard sometimes to walk out of it...I can't say I don't like that feeling though.

It's a beautiful thing...
not striving.
But, just simply "being".

In the words of the great J Upton":
"If I could see Your face, I think You'd smile at me. You've got that kind of face that defies gravity. You're too much, you're too much for me."

The more I spend time with Him and taste of His goodness, the more I realize He is just too much. :)

Enjoy His presence people. He loves when you spend time with Him. He desires to share the secrets of His heart with you. How insanely amazing is that?!

It blows my mind.

Peace. Love. Joy.

I was made for sunny days.

Jesus loves me.
Ohhh, yeah He does.

Sooo, update on life here at Bethel:

We get to choose an advanced ministry class and I picked Freedom through studying the book of Galatians. I am really stoked to start it and learn and walk in freedom so I can bring freedom to others! :) The book of Galatians is bangin' by the way...everyone should read it. It's deep. Here is an exerpt:

"Because, you are sons, God sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, the Spirit who calls out, Abba Father. So you are no longer a slave, but a son; and since you are a son, God has also made you an heir." (Galatians 4:6)

We also get to choose Activation, which is like outreach, my top pick was working with women going through drug rehab (because that is basically MY HEART lol) AND I GOT IN! :) I am really excited to come alive in helping other's come alive with dreams and passion through His wonderful love.

We have to pick prayer slots, and me and my roommate chose 2-3 am one day a week! Pretty stoked about that...just getting into His presence. Going on adventures with Him :)

Welp, I think that is all for now.

Peace. Love. Joy.

Lalala Fashion :) (as always!)

Oh, Fashion how I love theee.
Yes, yes I do.

So, update on things I am really digging this season...

1) OXFORDS!



2) Oversize Sweaters!



Of course everything I put in my previous post...lace, military trend, jeggings, boyfriend blazer :) It's all grand! I love the fall, such a brilliant time for fashion!

I will blog about my favorites from Fashion Week later on!

Also, this Michael Kors purse...to die for:


Peace. Love. Joy.