An ode to 'love'.

What is love?
Is love something that "happens" to you, an expression which you feel all of a sudden,
or is it merely a choice?

In theory if it were this euphoric, out of nowhere happening,
then I guess I could see how it would simply vanish,
leaving one with an excuse,"I just don't love you anymore."

If it were, in theory of course, a choice,
then would one really have an excuse for stopping to love?
A valid excuse at least....
Their only excuse would be, "I simply chose to not love you anymore."

It's an interesting thing, love.
A fickle thing.
A tossed around thing.
A popular thing. (at least to those who have made up their own definition of it)

What is love exactly?
And, if we knew it in its entirety,
the good...and the ugly,
would we still throw it around as if it were some kind of soccer ball?
Or would we really treat it as a weighty thing, and guard it, as well as be intentional with it?

Oh, to experience this thing we call 'love' in it's vastness.....

Peace. Love. Joy.

Blinded.

Life is such a fickle thing, eh? Realizing this more than ever in this season.
Not knowing, but trying to figure it out.
Analyzing, but getting no answers.
This seems to be my life story right now.

Head. Heart. Head. Heart.
What's reliable?
It feels a little like chaos to me.

Where am I going? What is the journey going to look like?
Everything is in the dark.
I am blinded.

Trust. Ah, yes, trust.
That I am certainly learning.
It's all I have honestly.

It's nice to know I can put my hand in His,
and just trust.
Although, I think that's where most of the battle lies.
The simplicity of trusting.

Who knows? I certainly don't.
I'll choose to simply rest mine in His and wait.
One day, this time in life, it will all make sense.
At least, to some extent.

Until then, trust.
Yes, trust, it's all I've got.
Of one thing I am certain, Him.

Peace. Love. Joy.

To becoming a daughter :)

Recently, God's been really ingraining in me identity without a need to prove myself.

He took me to the passage of scripture in Matthew 4 where Jesus is in the desert and Satan is tempting him. In verse 6 the enemy says, "If you are the son of God throw yourself down." (speaking of Jesus standing on the highest point of the temple). We all know that Jesus then replies, "Do not put the Lord your God to the test."

What exactly is Jesus being tempted with in this verse? Satan was tempting Jesus to prove who He WAS by what He could DO.
How often does that play out in our own lives today?
The constant battle of proving oneself by what we do instead of simply abiding in Abba as sons/daughters...that being what our identity is rooted in, nothing else.

I am in that process right now, of not only knowing in my head who I am (HIS),
but knowing in my heart, and literally living from that place.
Living from a place of truly being a daughter, and not even having to prove it...just being.
Ahh, just saying that makes me feel so alive!
We were created to simply "be" in Him, not have to prove our identity.
I want to live as I was created to.

I love that Jesus knew who He was, that He didn't have to prove one thing to Satan..
such a beautiful picture of how we should live.
To abiding in Abba...
ohh the bliss :)

Peace. Love. Joy.