I have been watching the Ramp Live the past few days... and it got me so excited about the things that God is doing right now in our generation! Karen Wheaton, Damon Thompson, and Lou Engle... they were all talking about repentence. We cry for Revival, for breakthrough yet we carry hidden sins within us. In order to see revival or breakthrough we must first repent to Jesus for those things within us that are not holy. In the misdt of my excitment I also find confusion though. I find confusion in the fact the body of christ seems so hypocritical to my eyes. There is never a balance. All around me I either see sold out, impure people... or impure people who are not sold out. There is no balance, no person who I see the same of both. I am not saying we need to try to be perfect, I am saying we have to try to ATTAin that 100% purity and 100% sold-outness!! I feel like I look around and I see no example of this anywhere.. not in this ministry... or that. This generation is called to this though... we are called to purity we cant just have half of it. We cant just be radical for Jesus without being pure, its dosent work that way. Yes it has been modeled that way for us.. but we are called to something greater and higher then that. If we want to see things changed we just have to be willing to lay down our appetites for impure things. They CANNOT co-labor together if we want to see things happen. I was really grieved in my spirit about this.. cause I saw girls who are in their twenties in leadership positions.. yet I saw such impurity. It made me mad inside.. I asked God how it could be.. how could someone so in love with you be such a bad example of purity. I asked Him if that is really what it looks like.. is that what I am suppossed to look like? Sold out... but yet impure in so many ways. The Lord began to speak to me that I attest only to Him.. He asked for complete purity.. and if he asks for it.. I must do it.. no matter the people, the leaders, the girls I look up to. No matter what they portray I must try my best to portray what God has asked. It is going to be hard cause its as if I am alone.. there are no exmaples to follow. I must trail-blaze. That is a hrd realization, but it must be done.
These are just ramblings of my heart, and they may not make sense.. or you may not take it as it was intended to be taken. But THIS is my heart.. and my desire it to live a life of purity and jesus freakness.. and I just wont settle for anything less!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Battle within our souls
I was watching a movie recently and God really spoke to me..... and gave me relevation.. it was actually spiderman 3 lol.
but some things said in the movie really hit my heart hard and really are SO TRUE!
" The Power Feels Good but you'll lose yourself."
When I heard that, God spoke to me.. its like when we sin just a little it feels so good to our flesh... and we want more and more of it.. and its like we start out with this itty bitty sin.. and next thing we know we are in a ditch. Its like one day u dont just wake up.. and you've fallen so far.. noo its a bunch of gradual compromises that landed you in that ditch! So o basically we have lost ourself. We dont know who we are anymore, we lost what God thinks, what he has called us to be. We no longer see our Destiny; or see through God's eyes. We have to learn to not let those compromises build... we have to learn not to lose ourselves in the good feeling of sin. We need to learn to be disgusted with sin... :)
"Whatever battle we have raging inside we always have a choice."
WOW! That is so powerful to me! We all have a battle raging.. a battle between our flesh and the spirit. Its constant... but we always, always have a choice!!! We can choose to yield to the flesh or overcome it the with power of Jesus. We always have excuses for our sins.. this or that this or that... in the end though it comes down to we could have chosen differently.. we could have chosen to overcome our flesh, yeah its the harder thing.. BUT WE HAVE A CHOICE! We have a choice to FIGHT and to war against the devil for our spirit! We do! We need to grasp that!
Just some thoughts, and something I felt God spoke to me! I hope it ministers to someone! :)
but some things said in the movie really hit my heart hard and really are SO TRUE!
" The Power Feels Good but you'll lose yourself."
When I heard that, God spoke to me.. its like when we sin just a little it feels so good to our flesh... and we want more and more of it.. and its like we start out with this itty bitty sin.. and next thing we know we are in a ditch. Its like one day u dont just wake up.. and you've fallen so far.. noo its a bunch of gradual compromises that landed you in that ditch! So o basically we have lost ourself. We dont know who we are anymore, we lost what God thinks, what he has called us to be. We no longer see our Destiny; or see through God's eyes. We have to learn to not let those compromises build... we have to learn not to lose ourselves in the good feeling of sin. We need to learn to be disgusted with sin... :)
"Whatever battle we have raging inside we always have a choice."
WOW! That is so powerful to me! We all have a battle raging.. a battle between our flesh and the spirit. Its constant... but we always, always have a choice!!! We can choose to yield to the flesh or overcome it the with power of Jesus. We always have excuses for our sins.. this or that this or that... in the end though it comes down to we could have chosen differently.. we could have chosen to overcome our flesh, yeah its the harder thing.. BUT WE HAVE A CHOICE! We have a choice to FIGHT and to war against the devil for our spirit! We do! We need to grasp that!
Just some thoughts, and something I felt God spoke to me! I hope it ministers to someone! :)
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