Excitment, yet confusion

I have been watching the Ramp Live the past few days... and it got me so excited about the things that God is doing right now in our generation! Karen Wheaton, Damon Thompson, and Lou Engle... they were all talking about repentence. We cry for Revival, for breakthrough yet we carry hidden sins within us. In order to see revival or breakthrough we must first repent to Jesus for those things within us that are not holy. In the misdt of my excitment I also find confusion though. I find confusion in the fact the body of christ seems so hypocritical to my eyes. There is never a balance. All around me I either see sold out, impure people... or impure people who are not sold out. There is no balance, no person who I see the same of both. I am not saying we need to try to be perfect, I am saying we have to try to ATTAin that 100% purity and 100% sold-outness!! I feel like I look around and I see no example of this anywhere.. not in this ministry... or that. This generation is called to this though... we are called to purity we cant just have half of it. We cant just be radical for Jesus without being pure, its dosent work that way. Yes it has been modeled that way for us.. but we are called to something greater and higher then that. If we want to see things changed we just have to be willing to lay down our appetites for impure things. They CANNOT co-labor together if we want to see things happen. I was really grieved in my spirit about this.. cause I saw girls who are in their twenties in leadership positions.. yet I saw such impurity. It made me mad inside.. I asked God how it could be.. how could someone so in love with you be such a bad example of purity. I asked Him if that is really what it looks like.. is that what I am suppossed to look like? Sold out... but yet impure in so many ways. The Lord began to speak to me that I attest only to Him.. He asked for complete purity.. and if he asks for it.. I must do it.. no matter the people, the leaders, the girls I look up to. No matter what they portray I must try my best to portray what God has asked. It is going to be hard cause its as if I am alone.. there are no exmaples to follow. I must trail-blaze. That is a hrd realization, but it must be done.

These are just ramblings of my heart, and they may not make sense.. or you may not take it as it was intended to be taken. But THIS is my heart.. and my desire it to live a life of purity and jesus freakness.. and I just wont settle for anything less!